You really got a hold on me

This is not the most inspired blog entry, or it will not be, as I'm not really feelin it at the moment, but I am so flattered that my housemate sydney said that she reads this... and it was a really good day, so maybe there should be some record of this. for myself. and for you. if you'd like.

Last night was warm. It was wonderful. I saw Courtney and Nick and Nick shared some really fancy delicious scotch with me. Courtney took a sip and exclaimed, "oh my god, I just turned into an alcoholic. Making bad life choices." Well, you probably had to be there. That's always a sign of great storytelling, "you had to be there," no, you lack the imagination to say it with an interesting or fresh perspective. Anyway, I woke up, went to the co-op, saw some of the people I love the most standing outside (Grant! Graaaaaaaaaant! I screamed as I was walking towards him. And Ish. And Johnny.). I saw Sean stocking groceries on aisle 5. And Elizabeth, my old boss, sat and had her lunch break with me. I always feel slightly uncomfortable with my bosses, but that anxiety is gone now that I'm no longer employed there. Elizabeth and I might go hiking. It'll be be neat.

Then I took Caitlin out to lunch for her birthday. We ran into Lance as soon as we arrived at the Delta and the three of us sat enjoying the beautiful weather on the patio. I ordered two salads. for myself. Lance eventually left for a picnic in the arboretum.Enter Daniel, a lovely man. I went to greet him; he gave me a hug, picking me up (he's a tall gentleman), and then he joined Caitlin and me for the rest of our visit.

I had a perfect Davis day, and came home to my housemates hanging out in the sunshine, and my cat napping and then licking and biting my hand.

We are going project a movie onto the back wall of our house, and watch it in the backyard tonight.

Days like today make me so happy that another spring is here, and it really makes me nostalgic for days past and gone. I was talking to Caitlin and Daniel, and I was saying that whenever I have a day like this in Davis, I feel like I want to move back. Daniel pointed out that if I were there, I'd probably want to leave. It reminds me (I said this already) of how I used to feel when I would see a large body of water, like when we went camping at this man-made reservoir many times when I was younger. I would see the water and feel the desire to own it, or to become completely a part of it. I would want to drink it, to breath it, to be entirely submerged in it and to dissolve in it. Or I wanted to be able to scoop it all up and take it with me. Impossible!

That's how I think I feel about a lot of experiences in life. The good things, I want entire control and ownership. Is this true? I believe I did sum it up, that I try to remember that I can love a thing without having it entirely belong to me. So, like this day. It's wonderful and mine, but it'll be gone tomorrow. I might remember it, I might not. It'll probably become tangled with all of the good sunshiny days to come in this house, this year. The longer I stay here, the more confused the memories will become.

That's all. I'm feeling pretty good.

What I want right now

I don't want to leave my room. I don't want to leave my bed. I would like to go back to sleep; I've been up for about four hours and I don't think that's possible.

I would like to take all of the things and people that have I loved in my life, and put them in a jar and drink them. To experience it all at once and all over again.

On the list (don't be scared about the jar comment):

Andy Cordova
Sean Johansson
Music by Al Green, Marvin Gaye, or/and Otis Redding
It's a Wonderful Life
Sleepless in Seattle
When Harry Met Sally
Dirk and Levon
Meg Blair
Dominic
Going to college
How I used to feel about working at the co-op
bike rides
hanging out at woodstocks
riding the train
airports
my sister
my brother
my family
my house
coffee dates
burritos
the ocean
trees
windows
weather
cold weather
Playing on our work softball team a few years ago
House dinners
Movie nights
the day we all watched MacGruber
Grant Parfitt
The city of Davis
Duncan and Mike Ulrich
Germany



That's it for now. Now I will describe my perfect day: friends, family, going to the ocean, eating burritos and drinking whiskey. Let that be life. shouldn't be too hard. Just have to get everyone back here. Maybe that will be heaven. (I don't believe in heaven.) The most pleasant dream.